I am 35 and never dated, should I????

Being that you are a single mom with four kids doesn't mean that the right man for you is not out there. If you want to marry there is someone for you. Dating takes time we just may not meet the right person the first time but hang in there. That's okay because you want the man that will be there for you and your kids. So if it takes another two years wait on what's best for you and the kids. If you want to marry you are going to have to date to find the husband you are looking for. Just like you are searching for a soul mate remember he is looking for you also. So yes date, take your time and have fun. Enjoy life while you can. Don't feel guilty about your life you deserve what's coming to you. So except it and live. If you are happy your kids will be happy also. It's wonderful that you are not bitter toward men since you have been in an abusive relationship before. That's says a lot about you, I know there is some man out there waiting to be with someone like you, so loving, caring, and forgiving toward others. You will know him when you meet him. Because he's the man you have been looking for. Surely you will know him. Good luck. Take care of you and your kids. Better things are coming your way. Be open to it....